I am so scared I always wanted to go to college to get my degree I have been so stressed I been did really good in the begining. I got really goood grades but now I am struggling after hurricane sally hit and my soon to be sister in laws health problems. I have been struglling to keep up in my classes so I dedcided that taking one class per sub term so I could focus on one class at a time. I am still strugling to keep up the second week of school and I am not done with the first weeks assignments. I have to watch you tube videos just to understand what I am even doing in for my class assignments. I really am starting to believe and think myabe people were right about me that I can and I will never finsih college and get my degree because I am just not capbale of doing it God just didnt put in his plans for me. I keep praying and trying this time my best just is not good enough. I am heartbroken and very upset about this I just think the best and believe the best thing for me is that I just need to give up on college and just focus and put all my engery into my family and business with God in the center of it all he is most certainly put first. I know without him I would have never made it this far.
Its been a very hard decion to make for me to finally say its time for me to say okay college just isnt for me. God created me different he created me with a slow learning disabililty I have struggled with my whole life. I had to work really hard to get my GED I am so proud of that. I know that is time I stop trying to get my business degree and stop trying to go to college when all I am going to do is fail my classes I already been put on acadmic warning now I am on acadmic probation if I fail any of my class this term or semester I will lose my finicial aid. I have already wasted so much of my time and grant and loan money on college. So after this term of my classes I will be emailing my school to let them know and I will no longer be attending school. This is just another chapter ending in my story.
The only way I will not give on on going to college is if I can some how manage to get caught up in my current class so I can pass my class so I wont loose my fincial aid. That has to be a miracle perfomed by God himself. Then I will have to think about how I am going to pay back all my school student loans I recieved. I have no idea how I am gonna do that. Please do not judge me I am only sharing my story is because I feel this is the only safe place I can share and write about how I am feeling what I am going through. Please keep me in your prayers and pray for me.
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