Thinking Positive Is Powerful Thinking

     I am from from perfect I dont evern try to be perfect becuase I got tried and weary of trying to be so perfect a goal I will never meet. Instead I strive to be myself who God created me to be with all my imperfect flaws, unique, corky, silly, and werid self. I had to learn to imbrace myself and all my imperfect flaws and imperfections. I had to learn to love my self that means loving all of me my whole self including my imperfect mind, body, skin, spirit and soul. I am not perfect I am a working progress and God isnt done with me yet. He is still working on me all of me not just the parts I want to see or what others see the invisiable parts you and I cant see the parts that are deep inside me. I had to learn to rely on God and not myself. I had to humble myself and ask God to show me what he sees when he sees me or looks at me. When I asked God to show me what he see's when he looks at me my whole perspective my whole point of view changed about my self. I was no longer seeing or looking at what I saw or what other people said about me. I was seeing myself in a whole new light becuase God opened up my eyse to a whole new view.

        I still have to do constantly and daily think postitive about myself which changes my whole mindset about who I am. Thinking Positive is very Powerful Thinking God warns us in his word that whatever we thinkenth in our hearts so thats what we are. I have to kindly remind myself I am child of God and I was created in his image. Therefore I am not ugly and unloveable. I am loved by God because he is the one that made me, created me knitted me, formed me together in my mohters womb even before she knew or was aware I even existed in her belly. To my mother I was mistake she made when she was young lady still in high school. I know my mom loves me in her own unique way. To her I was mistake because she didnt want to have a baby while in school matter of fact she never wanted to have any babys, kids or children. God used my mother and father to produce me so he could create me in his image to be like him in my mothers womb. 

        I am still learning who I am in Jesus and my heavenly father God who loves me so much. My mindset has completely changed. I am learning how to control my emotions instead of letting my emotions control me or get the best of me. I am learning how to still speak my mind how I think and feel without gettig so upset, angry or frustated that other people are not understanding how or the way I feel or see things. I still have my weak moments where I get depressed becaue my life is not easy as I see other peoples life seams so easy. I see people and watch people they seam to have it all together but I had to learn what I dont see is the struggle of the road they had to walk and travel on. I had to learn I had to stop comparing my life, goals, success and struggles to everyone I see and thats around me.I dont know what they had to go through to get to where they are and they dont know what I had to go through to get to where I am. I have my good days and bad days. I have like I dont understand why God would would give me the gift of a slow learning disability that affects how I learn things. It makes it really hard to find a job, get a job and keep a job expecially one that I am capable of doing. I feel like no matter how hard I try I am just stuck I am not going anywhere. I dont have and cant gain or learn the skills that most people can at the pace or rate employers want me to. I learning to love myself and my slow learning disability and not to let my learning disabiliy define me and who I am. Its very hard to not let my slow learning disability define who I am because its a part of me and who I am. 

        Thinking positive and positive self talk is real and does really help. As you are reading my words about my life your probaly thinking yeah right. Positive thinking is not powerful thinking but you could not be more wrong because that is so far from the truth. Maybe your thinking that okay yeah this positive thingking is powerful it works but not for me. Well have your even tried it I mean really tried it and be conistent and start where you are build on it like stepping stones you are building a staircase. Imagine and vision that you are builidng a staircase to your goals, your dreams to the life you want for yourself and your family. Those steps that are built upon each other each one each step is built form and on the previous one. Progress not perfect takes time step by step small goals on top of small goals , small dreams on top of small dreams and the ulimate goal and dream is at the very top, We can not get their without hard work and beaing fruit without God. We have to have God in the center of it all with God we can achieve all things. Imagine with a mindset like God what we can achieve if we are constantly postitive thinking whcih is powerful and we renew our mindset with Gods word we align our thinking what we believe about God ourselves then we transform our minds, hearts, spirits, souls and our lives. Our mindset is the control center of our life it controls our thiniking how we believe, feel, relationships and experiance life.

The Struggles of Having a Slow Learning Disability

        I am so tried of the stegmia of having a slow learning disabilitys and people always judging me. When people look at me they dont see the my disability I get dirty looks or looks on peoples faces says Yeah right I dont believe you. Disability does not have a certain look. You cant see my disability because its not a pyshcial disability. My disability affects how I learn things and I learn things at a slow pace then the average normal person. I was diagnosed as a young child with a learning disability. Matter of fact it was not my teacher or the school that noticed I had a learning disability. My mom is the one that caught and notied that I had a learning disability.  My mom had to fight with the school to have them hold me back in the first grade I still was not able to keep up with my classmates in a regular classroom. I was then tested over and over again with different tests. I was finally put in special education classes and I also had to take speach therapy. I had a speach problem. 

        The struggle for someone like me who has a disablitlity the struggle is even harder and ways more intense. Its easy for a normal average person to go to a job interview and land the job. I have been to job interviews and when I discussed with interviewer usually its a manager that I did have a learning disabiltiy they really dont understand what that means. I have been hired for jobs and fired from jobs because I wasnt able to learn how to do the job fast enough the manager didnt have time to train me properly. Its emabrassig and its humilating to lose your job because of a slow learning disability I was born with. I cant control how I learn things or how fast I learn things. I can learn new things it just takes me longer to learn them.

       My slow learning disability makes it hard for me to find a job I can do. I have tried to get a disability check or get my SSI disabiliy check back since I become an adult, I have been denied every time I applied for my disability check or SSI check. I cant get a disbility check or SSI check I can find and hold a study job that I cam capable of doing makes it hard to be able to stand on my own two feet and be able to support myself. I am so tried of people and my own family judges me acts like just because I have slow learning disability doesnt mean that I dont understand how to do things  for example saying things I cant manage money like my aunt telling my mom that dont put me down as one of her benefiicares on her life insurance money because of my learning disability I wont know how to handle her last dying affairs. My slow learning disability does not affect me knowing how to manage money and making sure I pay bills when they are due. My slow learning disability does not affect knowng how to take care of last and final affairs when it comes to someones death making sure the cost of having them buried or cremated is covered and paid. I am completely capable of doing all of those things and so much more.

        Please who ever reads this blog post next time you meet someone dont judge them before you get to know someone. Please dont judge your own family, coworkers, friends or friends before you really get to know them and their story and life struggles. 

Breastfeeding Support

        When I first become a mom in Novemember of 2009 I had these high espectations of being able to pump more than ounce of breast milk and I needed to have an electronic breast pump. I wish I knew what I know now that the mamas who were able to pump more than ounce or two from each breast combined were over producers. Thats not he average normal breast milk a nursing and pumping mama should be able to pump. I wish I would have known that I would have a hard time breast feeding my son when I had daughter my first born I would have contuined breast feeding her longer then what I did. When I had my son in 2015 I wanted to breast feed so badly but he would latch on correctly and I knew about nursing mamas who had the same problem and I asked the nurses over and over agian for the nurse lactation nurse to come in help me. 

        The lactation nurse was not very helpful at all I asked her about nipple tool for breast feeding mamas who are having a hard to getting their little babies to latch on correctly I told the nurse I cant get him to latch on correctly to help me get him to latch on right. The lactation nurse was rushing she was not helpful at all I had no support I felt so alone. I coulnt understand why I was having such a hard time getting my son to latch on when I had no pronblem getting my daughter to latch on when I had her in 2009. I know each baby was different I felt like a such a failure as a mom I knew that breast milk is best then formula I wanted to breastfeed but my son just wasnt having it. He just used me as a pacifier to go to sleep he wouldnt eat. He made my boonbs so sore at first once I got him to latch on correctly he just juse me as pacifier. He wasnt drinking enough milk. 

        I eventually just had to stop breastfeeding him altogether and just straight formula feed him because he wasnt getting enough of the fatty milk he needed. My body just wanst producing enough milk because the first few days was crucial that I needed him to latch on correclty to get my body to produce the milk it needed to be able to feed my baby boy my son. I felt like a bad mother to this day I wish I could have gotten him to latch on correctly. I had to learn that it was okay sometimes some babys dont latch on correctly.

        If your a breastfeeding mama or mama who wants to breastfeed look into community support groups for mamas who are breastfeeding. I wish I would have known more about the breastfeeding support groups so I could have had the support I wanted and needed when I was breastfeeding. Talk to your OBGYN talk to your doctor about your plans to breastfeed so that they can help give you all the support you need to breastfeed your baby. Talk to your doctor ask about breastfeeding support groups and any other breastfeeding support information they may have to give to you that your not awarte of. If you dont like your lactation nurse at the hosptial ask for another one if there is another you can help thats avaibale. 

        Also I wish I would have know that there was things I could have done to help my body to produce milk. Here is what I found you can make 

The Truth of Motherhood and Being a Stay at Home Mom

             I love being a stay at home and all the rewards I get from my children. I get to wake up every morning and wake up my my children every morning. I get to help get my youngest my son who is just 6 years old. There are some days he wants his mommy's help to get dressed and other days he wants to be independent and dress his self. My daughter is 12 years she is my oldest she can dress her self and do her own her. She defintely has her own unique style and she does not care about peoples opionions about her style and clothes. My daughter as long as she feels comfrontable and confident in her clothes thats all that matters to her. I get the joy and happiness watching my children grow and develop into their own unique independent personalilties and style. I get to hear my son tell me everyday that he loves me and how much he loves me. My daughter is hiting her teen years she has her own unique attitude that she isnt gonna take no crap from nobody. She often comes to me to asking me for advice about her friends. My daughter sometimes comes to me telling me about things she deals with from school and her friends just for me to listen. My daughter knows I am that mama bear that she tells makes me promise mama you wont go to my school I have it handled I just need you to listen so you know whats going on. I love my children dearly they know I will do anythig and everything I can thats in my power for them. I get to be there for my chldren for any after school sports or activites. 

           Being a mom is defintely one of the hardest job I ever had to do and the most rewarding job I have had, Being a mom is not  all fun and games. Being a mom means that love my children so much that i want want the best for your children and I  know I have to discpline my children even if it breaks my heart. Being a mom means I also get to treat and spoil my children. Being a stay at home mom I get be home when my children get out of school I have a choice I can go pick them up from school or just be home when they get off the school bus. Being a stay at home mom means I get to be the first face my kids see when they wake up in the morning and the first face they see when they get home from school. I get to be the one that fixes them after noon snack unless they want to fix it themselves. I get to be the one home with them cooking dinner for them. 

        What some stay at moms dont talk about is the fact it gets lonely sometimes being home all day long by yourself. By the time your spouse, boyfriend or husband comes home from work all we want to do is have an adult conversation finally with another adult have that compaionship. All the spouses, boyfriends or husbands wants to do is relax being left alone and unwind. Being a stay at home mom can get lonely. I am glad I have my facebook friends and family I can talk to during the day. I am also going back to school. I am attending Bryan University I recieve FAFSA to pay for my college education. I am a personal trainer student in the Associates Degree in Applied Exercise And Fitness Program. Going back to school means I can work on my assignments while my children are in school which will help pass the time. I can focus my engery on school completeing my assignments. I alos joined different groups on facebook like a quit smoking group which helped give me the support I needed to quit smoking. 

        The truth of being a mom is its amazing and wonderful  but it also can be very difficult and frustrating. Motherhood gets lonely as your children grow up you feel more and more less needed as they grow into and find their own independence. Motherhood there is alot of sleepless nights filled with tears and fear.  Motherhood is its filled with broken heart every time one of your children gets hurt physically or someone breaks their heart. Motherhood its hard to let go let your children grow up go off with their friends without you and to trust them enough to know what to do if something happens. Motherhood isnt all filled with rose garden even roses have throns. 

My Health and Fitness Journey

        I have been working really hard on making healthier chocies when it comes to my eating habits.  already have limited my soda and sugar intake. I have completely cut out all sodas in my diet. I am completely changing my lifestyle around including my eatting habits. I completely cut out all sugar no sweets or sugar addeed to any of my foods when I prepare them or when my hubby cooks. I have already cut out all added salts and salty snacks like chips. When I use seassonings I chose to use Mrs. Dash Salt Free Seasongs when I go to the grocery store I will pick up all kinds of seasonings that are salt free. I only use Sea Salt or Pink Himalayan Salt. According to articles and research I have found that Pink Himalayan Salt has 84 essential trace elements required by our body. The Pink color in Pink Himalayan salt is defintely nore naturtal then sea salt just another reason why I am considering changing the type of salt I am currently using. Most of the health specialist actually rank Pink Himalayan Salt higher than other salts. Did you know salt helps our body reglulate blood preasure, assist in nerve function, and helps your cells perform their function to keep organs healthy. Both Sea Salt and Himalayan Salt are a healhier option since they both are excellent sources of sodium chloride which is vital to our health.

         I also started making home made smoothies with fruits and veggetables. I will take a little water put it in my blend jet then add my fruit blend and veggies of all kinds. I even started eating salads and when I want a really good pasta salad I replace the normal pasta with veggie pasta. I also have been drinking more water on a daily basis. I even quit smoking which is really hard to do. I have been eatring cooked hard boiled eggs in the morning with avacado for breakfast I only season it with Sea Salt or Pink Himalayan Salt and Pepper, Lemon Jucice freshly squeezed from a Lemon and/Or Lime Juice Fresly squeezed from a lime. I also have fresh brococoli, carrots, tommotoes, Bell Peppers, Mashrooms and other veggies and fruits like Watermelon, catalope, peachs, strawberrys, grapes. apples I will have make a mixture of a fruit and veggie tray for snacks. I also make mixture of fruit and veggie smoothie I will add more fruit then veggies if I am really craving something sweet this helps keep me from wanting something sweet like ice cream, cookies or cakes I shoulnt eat. I defintley dont eat any cereal because it has way too much sugar. Its concious choice I make everyday everyday to eat healthier and choice the healhiest option. I am chosing to eat healhier for my own health and fitness goals.

The Begining of My Quit Smoking Journey

         I officially have quit smoking and I have been smoke free for a whole week. I was ready to quit smoking and I was and I am determined to quit smoking for good and be successful. The first step I had to do was be ready, determined and committed to quit smoking and thats the very first step if you or any body else wants to quit smoking cigerattes.  Second step is I went ahead and bought myself some gum so when I have that craving that does come fast and hard at me I can pop a peice to a few pieces in my mouth to chew on to help me fight through my cravings. I also came to relize and found out during the frist few days wasd my toughest days due to the fact after you had your last cigeratte your body will go through detox process just like I did. I had to take the whole weekend I just layed in bed let myself go hrough the detox process. During your first week of being smoke free you will find yourself at the times you are cracing a cigeratte that you will have the urge to snack or eat more then you would normally when you were smoking thats because your body and mind the conections what I like to call the connectors or sensors are all messed up that gives the singal that we are hungry are messed up have to be reprogrammed essenttially so you may find youself once you start to go through the detox process and your first few days to the first week eating more then normal. 

        I started going to the gym about a month ago to start geting fit and healthy now I am working on qutiting smoking my nasty habit of cigerattes. I also started to drink more water and keep track of my water intake and watch what I am earting. I started to make and create fresh smoothies from fruits and veggies mixed togather, I also use the feresh fruits and veggies to snack on during the time I get and have those nasty cracings to want to smoke a cigeratte. I also made a smoothie at the times of the cravings to help keep me from smoking a cigarette and or at those times when I crave something sweet instead of eating ice cream or cookies or cake I would make a smoothie and drink it and helped me get thorugh those tough sweet cravings. I am also taking a product called control from Everra to help me with those nasty cravings. Control all you do is add it to your water of 12-16 ounces shake or stir and drink it when you feel snackie you can even add it to your smothies if you want like I do.

        I also have been working at the gym but I also have been doing some of my own workouts at home to help with the cigeratte cravings. You can do some Squats, Butt Bridges, Pointed Butt Lifts, Fire Hydrant, and Heal Kicks. I also do a little Yoga I started back doing some yoga and pilates as well.  I went to my local walmart and purposely bought myself some fitness yoga matts with yoga gloves and yoga socks and a yoga block. I also purcahsed a yoga bag on amazon I found that has the best strapes that are comfy on my shoulders. I also recently purcahsed myself a new gym bag for my gym days. I definitly only recommend going to the gym for a few days out of the week in between take a rest day. I am know for me I went to the gym yesterday and today I just wanted to get back in the gym. So if you do find yourself that you want to stay in the gym you may jsut found your calling to help others want to losse wight and get healthy just liked I found my calling the same calling I had burried so long ago kept brushing aside and putting it off. Now I finally am going afrter my passion, my calling and dream I will achiecve my dream . I will be successful smoke free momma I know if I can do so can anybody else.

        I rather be addicted to excerise geting fit and healhtier watching what I eat then to be a smoker jsut think about. Your lungs and organs will start to heal go back to normaly little by little. Yes there is some health risks after being a smoker for so long you have some unreversal demage to your body and organs. The good news is as you quit smoking each passing day your body is repairing itself little by little. You will may experiance some coughing and sneezing shortly after your last cigeratte you have decided to quit smoking. The coughing is noamal your bodys blood preause will go back to normal and your breathing and heart rate will start to go back to normal. You can also try to do some coloring get yourself some coloring pencils and coloring books I love using color pencils instead of cryaons. I alos find stress releilving I know thats why I started smoking in the first place to help me relieve stress and my anxiety now you will have to be just like me when you quit smoking to find a way to relieve the stress you feel and your anxity. I also recommend highly recommedn listing to some postive music of your chose and make sure you have some chewing gum on hand I can not recommend enough how important it is to have some chewing gum becuase if you experiance a long ride or commute to work or going somewhere you go everyday chewing on that gum will help you to remain smoke free on those long car rides and listening to some postive music to keep you mind positve on the right track I love listening to my postive christian music.

        Did you know how your biody repairs itself after quiting smoking?

                            Detoxing Stage

1) 20 minutes Heart Rate returns back to regualar levels.

2) 2 Hours Cravings Begin and Blood Pressure Drops to Normal Levels.

3) 12 Hours Blood Oxygen Returns back to Normal Levels and Carborn Monoxide Lowers in the body.

4) 24 Hours The Risk of a Heat Attack decreases.

5) 48 Hours Sense of smell and taste return.

6) 3 Days Excessive Nicotine is out of the body withdraw symptoms at their peak.  

7) 2-3 Weeks Improved Lung function and Physical abilities.

8) 1- 9 Months Cilia Fibers begin to repair themselves improving breathing.

9) 1 Year 50% Lower Chance of Heart Disease.

10) Risk of Diabeties returns to normal for women. The risk of Stroke Returns to normal for women and men.

11) 10 Years The chances of Lung Cancer Cut in Half 1/2.

12) The Risk of Heart disease is that of a non smoker like you have never smoked before.

        I know I have noticed now that I quit smoking I can stand for a longer period of time for example I can stand for a long period of time while I am washing dishes. Before when I had a whole pile of dishes to do I couldnt stand there more then maybe 20 minutes or less doing the dishes before I needed a break for a cigeratte, I also noticed my clothes and hair are just now starting to smell normal instead of like cigeratte smoke. I have noticed I can do different daily acitivities and tasks that needs to be done for long periods of time before needing a break. My hope and pray that as I share my fitness Journey and my smoke free journey with you that it helps your or someone you know to improve not only your life but your quality of life. 

The Beginning of My Personal Trainer Journey

             I am so happy I have decided that college isnt for me anymore I was not determined, motivated and I just didnt have the passion to attended college anymore. I guess I just thought or had in my mind that I was suppose to go to college in order to get my degree in order to have a better job and career. I guess in my mind I thought in order to finally have peoples respect in my family I had to get my degree from attending collge and be somebody. I have realized that not eveyone is cut out for college not everyone has to go to college in order to be successful. I dont havce go to college and finish to obtain my degree in order to be somebody and be successful. I had buried my passion for fitness dancing, yoga, Pilates and my passion to help others who struggle just like me that I had lost myself. I had to find myself again  I am so glad I found myself again and my true passion. 

        I am now taking online courses for Virtual Coching, Personal Trainer, Group Fitness Instructor, Zumba Instructor and CPR Training all through NASM and AFAA  and includes recerfifcations for life.Since after I finsih each course at my own pace I can complete all my course work at my own pace without any specific due dates for each assignemnt or quiz. I also can take my Ceritifcation test or exam online with a propertor watching me to ensure my final cerification exsm is legit and I am not cheating. I am really excited because I have the passion for helping people I want to help people like me who struggle with their weight and eating habits. I want to help the single parents and stay at home parents to get helahty and stay healthy in the process lose some weight in their comfront zone, at home in a gym or outside at a park through virtual training sessions. I want to help people and their whole familys get haelthy, fit and stay healthy and fit including learning how to make or create meals together or just for parents to help them create healthier meals the whole family loves. I can share my own life experiances recipes that I have tried that works for my whole family. I just want to help people genuniely to love healthier happier lives includning their famly. 

        I just had to remember I can be myself and I had to find myself slowly over time agian. I know who I am now. I had to learn how to love myself agian and embrace myself and including my body. I can still love my body nobody my size all while trying to improve myself . I can still love myself and my body all while I am trying to do all the right things to lose weight, get fit, and healthy to better myself so I can be the best version of me for my family. I want to help other parents and familys do the same.