Sunday April 30, 2017

    Today I decided from now on I am going to start bloging again. Starting today moving forward I am going to start meditating. I am going start focusing on me setting aside time for myself for meditating and refusing myself on positive thoughts retaining my mindset, Soul, Spirit and my heart. I have to do this for myself not for anybody else.
       I have to as a woman and a mother set up time for myself to have time to mediate. So I can be a more positive person a woman a mother a child of God. So I can move forward to be a better me so I can be a better Mother, Daughter, Sister, Aunt and a better person all around. So I can find out who I am all over again within myself within become one with myself so I can be able to live myself again.
     Somewhere in my journey the paths i have taken I have lost myself. Everyday we make choices have decisions we have to make. I am not perfect I have made somw bad choices and decisions that lead me down the rough paths I had to take.

Feeling Anxious & Nervous

      I can not help but feel anxious and nervous today. I feeling nervous and worried about my familys current living situation. We are currently living in a hotel room till we can find our own house. We have car payments we have to make every month so far the car payment people are working with us and our payments are up to date. I just worry one day they wont work with us and we will lose our car. I worry everyday that one day I go in the hotel office and We are gonna be asked to leave. I worry everyday about our daughter who my mother has custody of currently. While she is in my mothers care I worry something happening to her theres nothing I can do about it or stop it.
          I worry about alot everyay survival basics we need just being able to keep a roof over my familys head. My boyfriend is the only one thats currently working I stay at home with our son. I am nervous about my FAFSA REVIEW So I can return back to school and finish my Business Administration Degree at Strayer University through Online Classes. I worry everyday about what if something happens to my boyfriend how will I be able to provide for my family because I am not currently working right now. My boyfriend is our sole provider.